Never got around to it. Anyway I stayed sober after that until today, where I am drinking for the same reason taht I did then. Essentially my performace at work this month is abysmal... my montly PnL is still in the black but not usefully so, and the market is one in which I really ought to be making a shit load of money. So going to try drinking to see if that affects brain right.

Notably I got very little sleep last night too. That may be relevant.

Going to set myself a target of making 8 grand by Friday. Any less than 4 and I will be uber disappointed. 15+ and I'll reward myself somehow.

Day 9

I'm drinking :(

Will explain why tomorrow.

well, constructive probably isn't the right word.

Day 6.

Same story. Tomorrow found a healthy constructive thing to do, wander around highgate cemetry...

Day 5

Still good. A sober friday night in 8 hours time... not sure what to do...

day 4

still going good although taking recreational opioids a bit too much...

last night ordered ocado order to arrive today which, unusually, will haev no booze, despite the site evilly trying to push it...

The rules...

...very simply, complete absitance from alcohol, without a very good reason.

Will post any drinking here, and justify it - or not. I don't even know if this blog is public, it's for me mostly, but maybe this will appear in google and be inspiring at stuff. Seems unlikely :)

er

(only alcohol that is, cockstains)

day 2

this is day 2 of COMPLETE sobreity as opposed to reduced shit n shit